Are we human or are we dancers?

Despite having four massive wisdom teeth cut from my mouth this morning I feel fantastic. It's not the drugs, those wore off hours ago. Apparently though, I was laughing and asking why they threw my teeth away because I wanted to make a necklace with them HAHA. Looking at my own life, I can see that circumstances don't affect our happiness level too much. Feel loved does though! Sirius Black was my nurse all day licking my feet and laying next to my couch nest. About an hour after getting home I felt well enough to send in a couple freelance writing applications for while I'm in Shanghai.



Then I read half of Zen Flesh Zen Bones for my East Asian Lit class. Love it. I'm also really getting into Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Matinence. I relate to it a lot. This book and into the wild make me want to get a motorcycle when I'm out of college and ride across the country (or maybe another country?) My mom wouldn't like to hear this. On another note, she says every time I come home she will be conducting naked full body scans for tattoos and piercings. I won't write here what she told me she would do if she found such an offensive design.

There is something to being outside. Having no barriers to partition you off from nature. I feel like nothing could shake my peace of mind as if I'd say, "Is that so?" and keep running. Speaking of running-- I've still got the marathoner in me! I have an amazing ability to pull long miles out of my butt when I haven't been training. Fast too. But only in the right mood. I ran two or three quick miles to start the morning yesterday and met up with my old marathon training club (The Omaha Marathon Training Clinic) later in the evening. I ran with Ken and Susan and we covered about six miles. We talked about the CIA and secret agents. I forgot how much I loved running. Maybe I can try to change my mindset and run not because it's good for me but because I love it?

[photo from my very first Half-Marathon in Brownville, NE on the Fourth of July... it was very flat!]

you gotta let me go
are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I’m on my knees looking for the answer
are we human or are we dancer
[The Killers]

Oh, and I forgot to mention-- I had the most amazing steak on this planet last night while I could still eat solid foods!