Musings and Ramblings

I think I could make a good Mia Wallace (Pulp Fiction) for Halloween... Anyway great day in New York. Apparently I've been in denial about my stress levels. Harvey helped me get something that will help me stop the serious teeth grinding I've been doing in my sleep. I suppose that explains the headaches and jaw pain. Today felt like the first day of the rest of my life today. I used my Sudler fund money to buy a massive supply of oil paint and these two 36 x 60 " canvasses, which we transported between taxi cabs, apartments, restaurants, cars, trains and dorm rooms. I think secretly (or not so secretly) I have to just prove to myself that I can accomplish a crazy feat every once in a while just for the sake of absurdity... We went to Guggenheim and Moma. I examined Kandinksy's and Cezanne's brush strokes up close. I thought about how they held the brush and felt the objects they were painting. I finally feel like a painter. I'm not sure how I feel about the world "artist." I feel like any time not spent in the studio is a waste of time. It's become my home. I even sleep there. Someday I want to have a room someone in the world with big windows where I can wake up to the sunrise and paint in my pajamas. Sophomore year I am finally living "my life." I know who I want to spend my time with. I know what I want to do. I still need to work on doing those necessary things to graduate, which aren't necessarily things I want to do... ehh. Photos are Harvey's. Oh P.S. Snig and I started a photo-a-day blog:

http://susashimi.wordpress.com/

Ciao,
Love ya
M